knapsack - “silver sweepstakes”

the first time i heard this song was in the middle of that week in december where i was drinking every night. i remember i was sitting on the floor in my room, it was probably just a little bit before i blacked out, and for those last two minutes—all glistening ghostly, like a lingering mist—i stopped thinking about whatever i was thinking about and just listened. it seemed kind of out of character for knapsack to tack this weird ambient coda on the end of their album, and i recall thinking it was just so perfect for that exact moment that it felt like it was put there just for me.